So- this is what I've been thinking about lately. It began because a friend of mine (I guess she's a friend..) didn't invite me to her wedding. I know that just because someone was invited to your wedding doesn't mean they need to reciprocate. I had some friends down in Lancaster that I really loved- and I feel like since moving away they forgot about me. I made a few efforts to stay in touch, but I suppose I could have done better.
So anyway, my thoughts have been about friendship. I didn't realize how many friends I had until everything I went through- and everything that got me to Philhaven. I didn't realize how much I had to offer other people. I know it's dumb of me to expect these friends to keep in touch- I just feel a little bit hurt that they had no idea what was going on with my life. I've had serious health issues, I almost committed suicide, and they lived their happy lives.
Since coming through my darker time I've definitely developed deeper friendships, and I wonder if I should even pursue some of the old ones? When you enter a new phase do all the old friends have to come along? Is it sometimes healthier to leave them behind?
Story that I've probably told before:
When my friend Val left for Rwanda I felt like I was going to have no friends. She was the one who I could call at midnight and she'd come over to chat. Once she called at like 11pm and came over and we watched movies for a few hours. Friends like that don't come along very often. So I prayed about it. Within the next year I developed a lot of new friendships, and in the past few months most of my friendships have deepened- and I have such an amazing support system- it's a pretty great feeling- especially considering where I was when I prayed for friends. :)
i have a lot of the same thoughts and questions kelly! so glad it's not just me. it's hard to gage whether or not to hang onto certain relationships and to know how to let go. let me know if you figure it out because i sure as heck haven't. :) happy to hear your support system is solid though! that's awesome.
ReplyDeleteA real friend is one who walks in when all the world walks out. ~ Walter Winchell
ReplyDeleteOh My Dearest Kelly, I so desperately want to be able to be near you! I miss you sooooo much. I am so sorry that I have not keep in better contact with you. I think about you so much and I love you! I miss those days... :(
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