It's Been Awhile

So- this is what I've been thinking about lately. It began because a friend of mine (I guess she's a friend..) didn't invite me to her wedding. I know that just because someone was invited to your wedding doesn't mean they need to reciprocate. I had some friends down in Lancaster that I really loved- and I feel like since moving away they forgot about me. I made a few efforts to stay in touch, but I suppose I could have done better.
So anyway, my thoughts have been about friendship. I didn't realize how many friends I had until everything I went through- and everything that got me to Philhaven. I didn't realize how much I had to offer other people. I know it's dumb of me to expect these friends to keep in touch- I just feel a little bit hurt that they had no idea what was going on with my life. I've had serious health issues, I almost committed suicide, and they lived their happy lives.
Since coming through my darker time I've definitely developed deeper friendships, and I wonder if I should even pursue some of the old ones? When you enter a new phase do all the old friends have to come along? Is it sometimes healthier to leave them behind?
Story that I've probably told before:
When my friend Val left for Rwanda I felt like I was going to have no friends. She was the one who I could call at midnight and she'd come over to chat. Once she called at like 11pm and came over and we watched movies for a few hours. Friends like that don't come along very often. So I prayed about it. Within the next year I developed a lot of new friendships, and in the past few months most of my friendships have deepened- and I have such an amazing support system- it's a pretty great feeling- especially considering where I was when I prayed for friends. :)

A Picture's Worth A Thousand Words

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My Little Girl is 4 and Her Room is Pink

Friday Korinne turned FOUR! I can't believe it. It seems like just yesterday that I gave birth to her!

We had so much fun on her birthday! I'm so glad that I'm a stay at home mom and was able to spend the day with her. :)

For her birthday dinner she requested asparagus soup, and spinach macaroni and cheese. We got an AMAZING Dora cake from Yoder's and had both sets of Grandparents over for dinner.

Last night Kevin's parents kept the girls overnight and Kevin and I got to spend some time together. Which I always LOVE! :) We decided to paint the girl's room. The paint in our apartment is all flat paint. Which is not great. My husband is a mechanic and I have a 2 and 4 year old. And flat paint can't be wiped off. So we started with egg shell in their room and will hopefully move on to the rest of it eventually.

Who Am I Living For?

So, I meant to do this post a long time ago; then I looked at this picture and decided to get up and do something rather then post on my blog. 

These little feet rely on me for everything. I'm not the perfect mom, I'm not the best mom in the world. Lots of days I'm tired and I don't feel good. Regardless of my flaws, my girls love me. Everyday I hear "Mommy, you're the best mommy in the whole WORLD".  I'm beginning to realize I need to start living up to that claim.

On days when I "don't feel good" would it really kill me to take them to the park for an hour?

So this is what I've been doing in the two weeks I've been MIA from my blog:

Going to the park and playing with the girls. It's amazing how excited the girls get when I go down the slide.

Playing in the sand.

Reading massive amounts of books, to the girls, and in my own time.

Got a library card.

Signed the girls up for a summer reading program.

Signed myself up for a summer reading program.

Finished the girl's summer reading program.

Took the girls to the summer story time every Tuesday.

Took the girls to see DORA at the library.


Met new friends. (who had friends for Korinne and Khloe)

Met said new friends at various parks in the area with our children.

Hung out with Rox (of course)

Baked bread.

And that, dear friends, is why I've been absent. I've been hanging out with the coolest little girls in the world. :)