when i started my weight loss journey almost a year ago i started having trouble keeping my blood sugar HIGH enough. great news for an insulin dependent diabetic! i was so excited when i got to go off my insulin pump. i was convinced that god had healed me. out of all my other health issues, for some reason, being diabetic was the hardest for me. it's just the constant checking blood sugar and needed to know what my body is doing. i just want to be able to live without being attached to something or needing shots. i had begged and pleaded with the lord to be healed, and i thought that this weight loss was the answer.
well, despite all my hard work, 80 pounds later, i'm going back on the pump. i've worked so hard, and i'm so discouraged. i don't know why i have a mental block when it comes to being diabetic. i know that plenty of people live with it everyday, but i really, truly, hate it.
can i just tell you the things i have heard? "if you'd just lose more weight.." "just go to the gym more..." seriously??!!
i'm so frustrated and stressed out. i'm disappointed that after all my hard work, i'm back at square one.
