Into the Light

The more I have been examining my thoughts in these past few days, the more I have realized that I am crazy! It's so amazing to take a step back and actually look rationally at the things that go through my mind. At the risk of convincing others that I am crazy, I'm going to divulge some of my "crazy thoughts", because darkness that is brought to light can no longer hide in the darkness! 

I have an issue of reading into what other people do too much. My first impression of other people is always that they don't really like me. Usually after spending time with someone I will over-analyze what I said, and what they said. No matter what happened, I can usually convince myself that they are either mad at me, or don't like me. See, I told you, crazy! This also leads me to explore what I think is so wrong with me that other people wouldn't like me. (I won't even get into that now!!) 

I once told my good friend Val about it, and she was in total agreement that those are crazy thoughts! I'm pretty sure these untrue assumptions probably have a bigger impact on me then I think. 

On a completely different note: ever since I made the post about my fear, and put it out there that I believed it to be a spiritual fear, my fear is completely gone. Completely. My heart occasionally jumps when I hear something at night, but I think that's normal! :) That completely confirms in my mind that bringing something from darkness to light is totally freeing!!