I am so grateful that we are able to get presents for the girls. At the same time, I am very aware of the mothers who aren't able to give gifts to their children, and my heart breaks for them. I know it sometimes makes me feel bad that we can't get our girls everything that other parents can, so I'm hoping that when the girls are older, we can teach them to give rather than receive at Christmas.
I feel like God has given some people less on purpose. It's our responsibility to clothe the naked, and feed the hungry, and give shelter to the homeless. While this is my favorite time of year, at the same time I'm disgusted by the materialism. Sometimes I am disgusted with my own materialism. Why do my children need 10 gifts, when some children have none? I want to give to my girls, but at the same time I want them to understand the meaning of the holiday, and not to become selfish. I think so many times, I take things for granted. I take for granted that if I burn supper, or don't feel like cooking, we can go out to eat. I even take for granted that we have food to eat, and a home to live in! I feel like it's almost sinful not to praise the Lord everyday for what I have!
I struggle so much with how much is too much, and it's hitting me hard this holiday season. This week we were planning on finishing up our Christmas shopping for the girls, but instead, we're going to let the girls pick out a toy to give to toys for tots, and we're going to celebrate the anniversary of the greatest gift the world has ever known.
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