Great Expectations

Ok, folks, this post is a proof that I am indeed crazy.
Lately I've been feeling a little "poor me", which is not normal for me. I have these expectations for other people, that I'd like them to be supportive of everything that's been going on lately. However, I hate for people to pity me, so I don't like telling other people about my health issues, I don't ever want anyone to think that I'm a complainer. Because that's not me. The other reason I don't like being real with people about my health issues, and my fears about it, is because I'm afraid of rejection, and that they won't live up to the expectations I've placed on them. Do I sound crazy yet? lol.

So where does this come from? Why do I place expectations on people? Why do I want so badly for people to care about how I'm doing? I guess that's all I want, to feel like I'm cared about. Sometimes I feel like, I care about these people and would bend over backward for them, but they won't do the same for me. That's a little bit messed up, huh? I shouldn't be doing things for people with an expectation already in my mind; an assumption that they will automatically care about me, too. So does that mean I'll stop doing things for people? Absolutely not. It just means that I really need to get over my "great expectations" for people.

I'm glad to say that recently, people in my life have completely surpassed any expectation I could have had for them. And I do feel so supported by so many people! :)

So, now I'm going to go listen to some Cee Lo (actually, the "F You" song is by far not the best on his album) he always cheers me up. I'm also going to relish every bite of food I have today because tomorrow it's a clear liquid diet to prep for my surgery on Wednesday.